this guy with a lavender purse on his right arm
and a big black tophat
gets on the near empty bus
and sits next to me realclose
rubbing my arm with his elbow
he starts scratching his head with both hands
looks under his nails
then sucks his fingers clean,
offering some to me with a smile
i wonder if he’s hungry
or if he’s lonely
or if he’s the father
that left me so long ago.